Why I must Accept the reality...

Everytime I On FB I saw ur name ,
Everytime I Stop Thinking I Think of U ,
Everytime I think Of U I Think Tht I stil gt chance ,
But I knw I Juz lieing to myslef only ,
I dun wnt to accept the truft ,
I dun wnt to Aceept tht I Lose ,
But I Knw I Have No Chance.......

I Tired Liao....

It Seems Like U Wont say anything nice infront of me........
I Tired Liao..........
I Dun want to Think Too Much About it liao.........
I Dun want to Show Any Emotion Infront Of U Guys liao.......
Tired..........
Maybe Is My Problem........
So I Cn Blame Myself Only........

Am I not Doing Gud Enough ???

At Hse I Always Try My Best to Do Things d Thing Tht I Should do
Like Throwing Rubbish , Mop d Floor n other thing......
But Why U Stil Wont Say Me Nice Or Somethings ???
Izzit Reli Tht Hard to Make U Say me Nice ???

Juz Being Silent n Dun Care Anything

I Love To Talk n Love To Hear other ppl d Things
but to My Family sometimes I Reli Dun Wnt to Care About it....
Why ????
Cuz When I Care Too much....
I Juz Been Said I too 38
Last Week , We 1 Family Go Foo Ping eat Din Sum . We eat near a table tht where they keep all those Tisue . I saw Ours d Almost Finish So I Go Take . When I Take I Took Many Cuz I Juz realise My Mom D Car d Tissue Almost Finished then O Took more to put at My  Mom Car . When The Time I Took back I Thought tht My Mom would be Happy But Sadly It Juz Me Think Too Much....
At 1st My Dad say me
"Why U Take So Much Tissue ???"
"U dunno Look Very Malu Meh ???"
"Its Not Like We Dun Hav Money to buy ???"
???????
I Juz Think Tht  mom d old tissue on her car almost wnt Finish then Help take mah Ned Like Tis say meh ??
I Reli Make U So Malu Izzit ???
I Smash Ur Car Make U MAlu Izzit ??
My Result Sucks Make U MAlu Izzit ????
All The Things I Do Juz Make U Malu Izzit ????
I Didnt Done Any tht Make U Proud Izzit ??????
I Juz Like A Shit In ur Eye Izzit ????
Why U Done Play Joke to Me or wat Juz Like U Joke to My Sis n Bro ???
Juz becuz I Big Enough ????
Then I no ned liao ??????
U Know everytime U talk Something  I always Try My Best To Agree Wth u ????
Even d 1st Time I gt A In Exam U also Didnt say Good Work or anything to me ???
U Juz Pass d Topic n Say Juz Like Tht ah ?????
Am I Reli Making u So Embarrased So Much ??????

Finally My Dad Scold Me Liao n Almost Wnt to Slap My Face

9 of November 2010 NIGHT
The Day My Dad Scold Me n "ALMOST" wanted to Slap My Face,
I Lock My Door Dun Let My Bro In n Let Him Knock d Door For about 15minute , After I Open Then I Scold Him , He Cry , Then my Mom is The 1st 1 Who Are Angry , Then My Dad Came N Scold Me Like a SHIT . He Say "Tht Is Ur Borther Why U treat him Like Tis ????"
hahaha Funny Leh  ??????? My Father Didnt Scold us For A Few Year N Finally 2day He Scold Me !!!!
He Scold Me Until I Wnt To Cry......Hahah I wnt To Cry ????Hahaha
Am I reli Tht Wrong ???
I Think So.......
Hahaha My Dad Scold Me liao He Also Wanted to Slap My Face....
hahahahahahahahahaha

Reason Of I Love To Wearing Earphone

Last Week , Ms Eliss told Me Tht O should Not wearing too much earphone ,
Cuz If I Wear too much My ear Will not be Function well When I Old,
I was Thinking "I Know I Know More wat Side Effect Will Gain When Hearing Too Much By Earphone",
But I Cnt Change It .
Reason 
1)By Earphone I Cnt Hear Anything From Outside
2)By Earphone I Cn Avoid Family d Convensation
3)By Earphone I Feel More Relax
4)By Earphone I Cn Feel The Beat Of The MUSIC

              ~Main I CN AVOID TO KNOWING ANYTHING THT I DUN LIKE TO KNOW ~

Who To Blame Me or My Bor......

I Lock My Door
Then My Brother want to com in (Since He Sleep wth me)
Then I Dun Open
He Knock My Door Many Times
I Still Dun Care
He Call My Sis
Then My Sis Knock Then I Open
After I Open I Scold Him In A Rude Way(Reli Rude Cuz I also Think I Too Over Liao)
Then He Cry
He Bring His Blanket n Go Down
My Mom Saw
Then He Shout n Angry
Then My Father Came Up
Then I Been Scold Until Reli Hard
I Cnt Say Anything
If I Say I Will Been Slap
After My Father Go
My Mom Juz Stand At There Staring At Me
She Didnt Talk n Say Anything
Then She Close The Door
So Who Should I Blame ???
Is Me Right ???
I realise Tht If I Dun Care Anything About It Then None Of Tis Thing Would Happend So Next Time I Will Juz Hear My Music Everytime Juz To Let Me to Dun Hear any Conversation About my Family , When I Dunno wat Are They saying Then I wont Be scold..............

Juz Becuz OF U My Happy Moment Was Been Destroy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday Something NICE juz Happen , I Think Thts is the Greatest n Best Thing tht I Wish It Would Happend , The Next Day the Moment I Though After I settlel The Hardest Part n Things Will Going According To The Way I LIKE . But Juz BEcuz Of U !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All Of It Has GONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now Peoeple Go Wth Other People Liao !!!!!!!!!!!!! U HAppy Now !!!!!!!!!! Yah U wont Cuz U Dunno Wat Happend But NOW I VERY VERU ANGRY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOW MY MOOD TA MA DULAN !!!!!!!!!!!! Yah U right Now My Age Should Do more Study !!!!!!!!!!!!! So.............Thts Mean I ned to Let Go All Of the Chance ah ????? U think I Gt So MAny Chance Ah ?????? Tis Year NOVEMBER 6 I baru Gt Chance n Juz Becuz Of  U , I Dun Hav Chance liao..................

Finally I Made Up my Mine My Choice is...........

At Year 2010 Month October Day 5 , Time 9.47pm I Have Made up My Mind . Its Time To face the choice that I have Oredi know for a long time liao , When I Think that I gt The Chance is only juz a lie......
I lieng Myslef for let me Think tht I gt Chance , But when the time passed , I find out tht Im only 1 who are disturbing . I should Quit tis Game....Tis Game reli Hard to play N I know it From the begining...... Tis Game let me saw somethings tht I dun want to c , Tis game let me Know how Stupid Im....... But Now I have finally made up my mind The Choice tht I make is to "QUIT"..............

Sometimes Choice Take even longer time to make...........

I hav think of making a choice for a long time . I dunno wat choice do i choose , either Yes or No ???? If I choose Yes will i feel better ???? If I Choose No I will be feel more sad ???? I dunno......... I ask some opinion from many people But sadly I stil cnt accept their opinin Is not tht their opinion not nice Is Juz I dun feel like want to make the choice I Feel like want to Juz Let it stay at tht situation . But I know I juz lieing to myslef I juz trying to escape from tht choice , I juz dun wnt to face the choice tht I have oredi made up in my mind......